I’m trying not to hate anyone but I can’t.

HELL

Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets. So love the people who treat you right, forget the ones who don’t and believe that everything happens for a reason. If you get a chance, take it. If it change your life, let it. Nobody said it’d be easy. They just promised it would be worth it.

Goodbye Days.

A letter to heaven

Tomorrow will be 365days since your demise. I know you’re somewhere out there, somewhere far away. I don’t know till when I’ve to wait, but I believe someday we will meet again. Even though you’re no longer in this world, our lovely memories would never be forgotten and will remain fresh in our heart, something unerasable and permanent. Love you kakak

Lots of love,

Tiqa

Wednesday, 7th November 2007

My life

The CT scan result was bad. I have tumor in my both lung. So we went to PPUM to met Dr Vivek, I was admitted to the hospital but discharge on the same day. He explained to us about my disease, treatment and everything. I have to do chemotheraphy, surgery and ...?

I felt relief and thankful. Although I knew it's not going to be easy, and I have to sacrifise..

Tuesday, 6th November 2007

My second day of bone cancer

Yesterday, Dr Wong set an appointment for us to meet Prof David Chun in PPUM. But before that, we met Dr Ali Noor Ghani and thank goodness! He gave me hope! He can change my bone with metal without remove my leg. But I have to do CT scan first. Just hope it will not spread to other area.

Everyday I pray.. and the result..

Yesterday is a history

Monday, 5th November 2007

My first day of bone cancer

After did MRI and biopsy, the doctor said that I have a bone cancer stage 2 and the worst thing is he said that my leg will be amputation. Sounds crazy and ridiculous, I was non-stop crying. I felt that my life was going to be worst! and I can't face the truth and still hope if it was a mistake.

In the evening, mak took me to Bandar Kinrara. We met Datin Zaleha and she introduced us to Professor Ananthan if i'm not mistaken and he didn't give me hope actually. The way he talked, I knew that I'm not going to be fine.

That night, I cried and cried, thought about my future, and my dreams. I had a bad dream, and don't know how to accept it.

I pray and pray.. full of hope

Hidayah Aziz, due to osteosarcoma stage 4, since 2007 till 26th January 2010 at 9.09pm. May you rest in peace with Allah's blessings ya! I miss you :'(

AL-FATIHAH

Now and the end

I love to run

I want to climb the mountain

I want to do something interesting and challenging

and I know I can do it

But that’s before something happen to me

Am I sick or what?

Now

I can’t do many thing that I loved

What would I feel this pain

I’m wonder when I can do my favourite things?

I miss my past

don’t know about my future

is it will be okay?

But I believe in fate

and my destiny

Just cry and pretend to be strong

when I feel sad and hopeless

and wait, my strength help me

to face the truth

Although I don’t know when

it will be end.

By Hidayah Aziz, 2007

Gemuk vs Gendut

I ♥ Cheesecake

Gendut known as "Obesity" in Biology. Orang selalu kata eh awak GEMUK GEDEMPOL lahh! siang-siang dah kena ayat pedas gitu, tak ke sedih mamat comel sorang tu? Okay apa gemuk, eh bukan okay apa gendut badan pun chubby tandanya kau sihat takde la orang kata kita kebulur dak? Asal sebut "Gemuk" je semua nak focus kat Haleem macam la dia sorang je yang gemuk. Takpa kita geng. Lagi suka orang panggil kita gendut daripada badan macam ikan kering tak cukup kalsium. ngehngeh. Best apa dapat title gendut tu bukan senang weyy pekena 10 pinggan nasi sehari baru aci. Ada bran? Orang nak gaduh pun cabut. Tengok kaki la beb

Kalau nampak budak perempuan dalam lab Bio yang pakai name tag besi dan mata ala-ala orang tak tidur kira bulu kambing menguap bebanyak kali masa teacher tengah explain pasal metabolism dan system in plant kalau bagi bantal satu konfem lentuk habis! Bukan apa, memang tak tahan la bila kena dengar explanation dalam lab Bio, belum sebut pijik kemisteri ademat dengan formulae segala. Awak PaHam taWk itEw nAntoRkz GilewWw BabI???~ TaPi ItEw AgIe aSe naK lEmPaNg jEwW AwaK LaU cAkaP CenGgiNi Taw TaWkK? JaDi MiEwNaH WeMpiTzZ JeRkK HikHikhIkHiK~

*IT'S ANNOYING STOP IT TIQA

Haha sumpah macam lawak gila bila teacher saraswathy explain pasal istilah gendut dan gemuk. Hari-hari makan cheese tak boleh jadi jugak. Glucose banyak, naik aje tak turun-turun memang naya abis le. Teringat nik pernah kata “Atiqah aziz gendut sudaaaa” nik you really mean it? T_T okay saya gendut saya gemok saya montok saya boyot semuanya title saya la tu merajuk tanak cakap dengan nik sorok muka dalam stor sebulan kbye

Yaya

WHY ? Cause I’m fated to love you.

Years come and go with ups and downs, happy and sad, good times and bad. Every day of your life should be cherished because no matter what it could never be replayed. God made you and put you in this world to live it to the fullest and make the most out of it.

The day you entered this world was the day your journey started. The first couple of years in your lives are meant to make you understand the world. After that it's your decisions to lead your life. Your family and friends are probably the most important things that will ever happen to you. They would always be there to guide you through and make life better. Life was a journey that was given to you and now you have to enjoy it.

Love was one of the gifts given with our journey. At a young age you have all kinds of stupid crushes and then as you start to grow love starts to get more serious. Many heart breaks, and many smiles turning into frowns. But just so you know everyone has a soul mate out there you just have to search well.

So stop wasting tears on those who don’t deserve it and start searching for the one who actually deserves your tears, but would never give them a reason to go down.
So live you life to the fullest and make the most out of it!

Bitch, you do give me a shit

Move on

People say you don’t know what you’ve got till it’s gone. The truth is, you know what you had, you just never thought you’d lose it.

I’m proud to be one of 2012 SPM candidates, pfftt

Gambate ne ! :)

Challenge

Physics Biology Chemistry

and sorry to say,

I ♥ Addmaths!

Hell yeah, you guys can kill me NOW

It's not about how he made me cry, it's about how he made me smile again.